We are still waiting. We still have our trials going on so hubby feels he needs to work at least 6 days a week, 16 hrs a day. This can wear a female out just waiting to see/feel love.
As females do, I issue the ultimatums, I complain….he says “you say this stuff all the time.” Well, the only thing that changes is he smiles and hugs me now and then and says this will all be different when the houses sell. Smiles, warm fuzzies, time together and I am appeased till next day when same old same old is renewed.
Am I wrong to want to feel like a priority? As I tell him, “if you would commit to spur of the moment taking some time off from the Job, I’d know it was only a job and I was/am priority”. He says, “I can’t.” I say, “You won’t.”
Normally, I’d go down depression road with these feelings but, I am just tired. My yo’yo is down and gets “up” with expectations when I see him. Inevitably I start in on the things have to change, we get tense, sometimes yell…..no one is appeased. Nothing changes.
He doesn’t know that if he possibly fake called in to work and said, “Something major has come up, I won’t be in”, I’d kiss him and feel the love and appreciation and say go on and go in to work…..What? Too many soap operas and romance novels? If so, so be it.
Dear Lord, let something Give…………