Surprise! Perhaps when you think you may have life figured out, and you have a flow in your day to day, you have a big realization. God knew these things would happen years ago when He wrote His Word. James 4: 1 says, “From whence come wars and fightings among you?….come from…that war in your members”? (war within you)
Folks carry stuff and baggage from years, weeks, days prior, to now. We have all heard this. We have read magazines, books,and who knows what all about this. God knew, we needed to psychoanalyze ourselves, so we could “get through” stuff.
Growing pains and power struggles start in the head first, right? Can you feel it? I, personally, may come into being what the world may call Successful. I am actually trusting God to bring this to pass. The more I see successes, the bigger my hopes, dreams, and faith become. It seems I exude the successful person I want to be. This, in turn, has me speaking with a larger vocabulary. I am also talking about what God did, then what I talked to God about, what He said to me in His Word more. Not meaning to, this can come out wrong. Talk about sounding “preachy”……. My hubby takes offense more and more. He naturally throws up his wall of protection and communication/relationship tends to suffer.
A while back, I actually had this talk with God. I asked Him to curb my successes, if I wasn’t going to be able to handle them gracefully. I have not been “rubbing successes in anyone’s faces”, but….. On the other hand, successes have been s-l-o-w in coming and I’m getting a bit numb in the waiting tank. I see so much coming in the future. I see a possibly happier, busier life for myself, on the horizon. I’m excited……..
But, I wait……….Lord, let me retain my sanity in my waiting……(oh, and don’t let me be a wrecking ball to all in my path, in this development time….)