“ALL or NOTHING”

I may just let my “book” be read this way  (free, since the whole idea for writing was merely for folks to know more about God, anyway)

Chapter 1


“No Gray, Not Even In My Hair?”

Are you hot? Are you cold?

In the book of Revelation, in the Bible, chapter 3, verse 16 has John the revelator being told, “So, then because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spue thee out of my mouth.” This is from my King James Bible: as I usually use for references.

The choices are only cold or hot? Really? “God, You want me to feel/be passionate for You, or You’d prefer my not bothering at all? No in between? No gray areas? No wait until…whenever…? What if I make a future promise to You, God? Isn’t that pretty harsh, being that You are a God of love and all?

Perhaps I can have some gray slip into my beliefs now and then, right? I know some gray hair slips into my long locks from time to time, and that’s not so bad.

There’s actually a personality disorder that involves a person’s thinking in terms of all or nothing. I tend to be  that way. In psychological circles, this is a negative thing. In debating going on a diet, for instance, this can really mess with your head. In time, I’ve had really good success with a liquid diet. I’m one of the few people know who can stick with a liquid diet, by the way, but it’s been quite a while. My husband cannot seem to wrap his head around that at all. With food, and many things in life, I tend to do better with fewer choices. That buffet restaurant we love to go to is really not my best friend. Yes, I do better as a follower, in many instances, also, rather than being a leader.

“Hey, Lori, do you want to go to the buffet?” I do. “Oh well, sure I’ll go.” Now, I’m following and thinking of all the varieties of choices.

God wants us to follow Him. He talks about how He would prefer a person was hot for Him, as opposed to being cold. He doesn’t want wishy-washy Christians, really. (see Revelation 3: 15- 18

In one of my (prior) blog posts, I have a picture of seven pieces of candy in my post about 1 Kings 18: 21. You may ask, “Why the candy?” I will tell you in a minute. Hang on.

Let’s first remember Elijah when he came to the people and said, “How long halt ye between two opinions? If the Lord be God, follow Him: but if Baal, then follow him.” The people didn’t answer.

I’m reminded of Joshua 24: 15. Yes, I and my household have chosen to serve the Lord as Joshua did. (Nothing wishy-washy about our decision)

Jesus said, “Deny yourself and follow Me.” (Matthew 16:  24 and other references) I love Jesus and He loves me.

“Um, Jesus, You mean deny myself a little bit? Follow You some? I would venture to say we all have trouble with denying ourselves.

I am ever thinking of food for thought. The idea with the miniature candies in the picture is an example of something we are sure we want all of. We didn’t even need to pray about it, have a congressional meeting, or put out the fleece for a decision from above (as Gideon did in Judges 6: 37)

King Solomon, in the Bible, said “Lord God of Israel, there is no God like Thee in heaven above, or on earth beneath, who keeps covenant and more with Thy servants that walk before Thee with all their heart” (1 Kings 8: 23) We desire to be “all in” with our God, just as we are with some candies.

God keeps a loving covenant with those who walk with Him- with their whole heart.

Solomon was a very wise king. His wisdom came from God. He loved and knew God. He trusted and worshiped God. I know for a fact that I’ve tasted and “seen that the Lord is good” as said in Psalm 34: 8.

Have you ever done anything with your whole heart? Have you ever said no to something, or someone, because your heart just wasn’t in it.?

Through the years, my heart has grown. It’s also been broken a few times. As one who has been married more than once, I can tell you I really enjoy the feeling of being newly in love. Colors are brighter, food tastes better, everything is nicer, and the world is a happier place. You always want to be with that person. There is nowhere else you would rather be- in the whole world. It can seem like a high. It can seem like this person is “your world”. There are billions of songs written about his kind of love and the feelings/emotions.

Inevitably, your expectations of that person can go sky high, when they disappoint you– it’s a a painful fall. There is only One Who won’t ever disappoint. That’s Jesus, Himself.

Enough disappointments, and it’s a rude awakening. I should not have put all my “eggs/expectations in one basket” so to speak. Even if I thought this person hung the moon, as referred to in the old movie “It’s A Wonderful Life”, with Jimmy Stewart (produced and directed in 1946 by Frank Capra). This person didn’t really hang the moon; only God did. I must remind myself that man/humans will fail me every time. They will tend to fail God also. I can only put my expectation and hope in God. God loves me and wants the very best for me. He always has and always will. He tells me that in His love letter to me: His Word. He truly deserves all my love . My love is limited while I’m bound to this earth, but I’ll share it with my Creator in heaven, for all eternity.

Contemplating gray, I thought of Good Friday. (after thinking of my hair…smile)

The sky turned gray, then black, as the Savior was dying. Because of the cross, Jesus deserves our all. It’s our privilege to give ourselves to the One Who gave everything on the treacherous cross. He loves us so much. He even “rejoices over us with joy”. (Zephaniah 3: 17)

Why not give Him our all? He gave His all for us. He washed our sins clean with His painful blood death. We give of ourselves to humans who love us. Jesus broke the chains of sin, death and the enemy’s power on that cross. Jesus agonized for the wretch that is me. His flesh hung from His bones; He lost oxygen and turned gray. He was covered with blood also. Christ struggled to breathe knowing we, His friends/joint heirs to the kingdom would spend eternity with Him if He persevered.

We thank Him.

Damn Cats!!!

Sometimes, I feel I live for my cats! Last week we flea bombed and treated again. It’s that time of year. My oldest wasn’t happy. She is all black.

I have one cat on steroids, currently, and one using an antibiotic. The one using the antibiotic against her will, is being set aside in the room with the eldest: who is all black. (and age 14) (Her name is Shadow) They don’t like this idea.

They hiss at each other. It’s been a week. I sleep in this room. They let me know they wanted Temptations treats (I call them “cookies”) at about 5 am. last night. I groggily served them and went back to bed. They have me trained?

I felt the 14 year old proceed to walk on my arm, down my leg and to the lower half of my leg. Awww, she’s showing affection. She laid her tail out over my leg. This is sweet. This is nice and warm. Precioussssssssssss….

NOT!!!  She then proceeded to pee on my leg and on the bed and pillow. What in the world?!?!?

NO, no, it gets better. I was groggy. I wasn’t awake. I couldn’t distinguish what she really had done, so I told my mind it was just warmth. I slept.

Over two hours later, I got up and smelled the pillow and bed. AGGG!!!

It had been pee! My legs!!!!!!!!  Directly on my legs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Emma, my antibiotic baby, is on the left