As I turn my eyes upon Jesus, I’m reminded of Haggaii 2: 9. “The latter glory of this house will be greater than the former, says the Lord of Hosts. And in this place I will provide peace, declares the LORD of Hosts.” I’m taking this as the latter part of my life will be greater than the first part. Thanks God. I am claiming this promise!
The Love chapter….
In the Bible it says what love is, directly. It’s patient, kind, doesn’t envy, doesn’t boast, isn’t proud, isn’t rude or self-seeking, isn’t easily angered, keeps no record of wrongs, doesn’t delight in evil, rejoices with truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres, and never Ever Fails. (my abbreviated paraphrasing)
Well, as it is, I’m still hoping to move out of Ohio soon. My darling husband doesn’t ever want to move. He’s happy in his Ohio job. Biblically, as the wife, I should submit, right? I am having trouble with this. Though it is Summer, I know Winter is coming. Me and my imagination can just picture what I’d do differently this time, in the state that I want to live in. I can picture lots of things. I long for this life. Then, I think of the Love chapter.
Early in a marriage, people can be so lovey-dovey that they overlook moments of unkindness, moments of self-seeking, anger, not feeling totally protected, and so on. A couple kisses and makes up. That’s great. This is awesome in a Christ-based marriage. Then, situations change. Life starts throwing curveballs and roadmaps that were never expected so soon. I’m thinking of a very jerky roller coaster ride at the amusement park. These things happen, and there really is not amusement involved at all. A couple has to hold on for all they are worth and hold fast to Jesus.
We are holding fast. Our love hasn’t failed. My self-seeking wants to move. My husband’s self-seeking wants to stay in the nice job he enjoys, keep working with both his sons, and linger long enough to get a nice pension from this job. That is an ideal situation if he was single or totally “separated.” How do we rejoice in truth?? How do we rejoice in the truth of wanting different things?
I, daily, feel like we are oil and water. My husband is barely home: awake: 2 hours of each day and has to sleep. He does the lawn business also, because he’s committed to it and has given it to God.
I just know I could go live in an over 55 community and have more easy access to humans.
There was half a plan that my husband’s son would move his family into our Ohio home and pay rent to us, or just pay the mortgage company. They sort of want to move away from where they are living now. It seems all 6 humans involved in this story are fearful to change up the situation as it is now. I see the perfect opportunity coming in 17 days, as we will get the money for the selling of the campsite and I can take the 14,000 right down to where I want to live. I can make a deposit on a place. I can make arrangements with owners, as to making the payments/financing.
Am I being rude? (as well as easily angered) Dear Jesus….
Oh! Here’s some interesting side info. The pastor of our church, who counseled us, asks every week, “how things are going”. We smile and say fine. We are together. You see, if we are together, I’m not out of this state. That means we are not fine as an agreeable couple. We are coexisting as oil and water. Each day goes by and there’s no sign of my getting closer to my moving, my kindness is slipping away. (total transparency)
The idea of a bow shooting an arrow out into the world to continue the work the bow started out doing, is a cool idea. (Pastor Barry Clardy) The “bow” is older and has had more experiences. In theory, the “bow” is a more seasoned/mature Christian and has weathered the storms the arrow will go forth and one day face. The arrow watches and learns. The “arrow” takes over when the “bow” is old, weary, about to pass on to heaven.
Generation to generation the lessons and experiences are passed down. Each generation adds his own unique tidbits.
Blessings are passed down too. We thank God for them. We pray we are able to pass down legacies of blessings to others.
While looking back on our Florida experiences, we thank God for the many lives we touched in 9 years. We admire the lives we’ve touched, and been touched by, in Ohio. We pray the good will remain after we depart. From family, lessons with the lawns, work ethic, cooking for big numbers of people, giving, and a love for God…we pray the “arrows” continue on in a big way.
He loves me. We had our anniversary and he is promising we can move back down south.I pray he won’t regret, nor resent this one day. What all would getting ready to move and downsize again entail??I’m thinking: to show the house, we need to take 5 cats to the Humane Society and commit. We’d be moving to a home owners association place where the maximum number of cats is 2. We had a nice anniversary, by the way. We didn’t really do anything too spectacular…. We need to sell the double campsite 40 minutes away: including cedar chest and some tools.Hubby says we need to have a yard sale here and get rid of the piano, some tools, books and cases,… Hubby says I would be the one to get to drive down and pick the place, leave my car, fly back, have finishing touches here, drive the Dodge Ram truck the 1000 mile trip while he drives the U-haul. My idea is to have all this done before the next 4 months are over with. My hubby wants to finish putting in the toilet/bathroom downstairs, here, so folks will want to buy the place immediately. We would be moving to a place with no basement, no garage, only a carport, a community swimming pool/gym/clubs/socializing….. He wants to keep his zero turn mower and some lawn customers. He would have to find a full time job. He thinks he may get back on with the schools. (Hernando County) Alas, we know, my hubby isn’t getting any younger, so when he comes home from work now, he relaxes. He doesn’t start in on any of this prep. The whole idea seems so VAGUE…. (merely a dream?)
We put out the fleece (Biblical term) as far as “if we got a loan (not really debt consolidation, but sort of) that would be the go ahead on moving South again…Hmmm.. we got the loan. I prayed we would. I prayed Dr. Steele wouldn’t get his job in CA. too. (too many earthquakes and just too mucha too mucha) Dr. Steele says he probably didn’t get the job… Thanks for answered prayer, God. Now, about this “adventure”…..