Fourteen

Fourteen thousand dollars!

Yes, we are going to get that much money in less than 5 days. I have spent the money in my head several times. I’ve imagined how I’d move to the state I love to live in.  Since I love to write and make lists, I’ve listed and calculated how the monthly bills would be and every detail. I’ve imagined my new life with the sense of community I lack and desperately seek. I’ve prayed. I’ve sought God. I’ve talked to God about my hubby’s part in all this plan of mine. I’ve lost sleep…. Get the picture?!?!?

Alas, don’t you know what reality will be, though? I, the submissive wife, will submit. Before, when there was talk of a 5 year plan, that seemed unbelievably hard to fathom. Now, there’s a more simple 1 year plan. We will strive to turn the 14,000 into 70,000 in a year: then the move South will come.

A more “simple plan”?  There are approximately 330 days till “plan” can take effect. What can I do to make time speed by??

I’m reminded of the song by the group Lincoln Park. (remember them?) “In The End” had lyrics like “I’ve tried so hard and come so far, but in the end, it doesn’t even matter. I had to fall to lose it all, but in the end, it doesn’t even matter.” The lead singer of these lyrics ended up killing himself.

What’s it matter? I’ll keep my anonymous blog and I’ll hang in there 330 days. Perhaps I’ll get more involved in church. For a while, there was a thought I’d get a paying job. I’ve applied some places, but seems I’m hard to hire.Soften the days?????????

“Fill the days, oh God”…………….